Memories of a Sagittarian

A path taken...

2010-01-21T01:34:00.002+01:00

Library became my second home recently. Everyday whenever I have free time, I will be in the library. I’m in the rush to chase the time, which is running out. I come back home only after the library closes at 12am. When I cycle back home at night, I will pass by the dark alley that runs along the river behind Hafenstrasse. One night, I was feeling especially tired, and lonely, before I reach my home. I slowed down, and eventually stopped cycling.

I climbed down instead and sat beside the river, watched the sky which was so full of stars that night. I asked myself: Why am I trying so hard to chase the time? Can’t I just stop for a moment and wait as the time flows by? Instead of cycling so fast, why not try to take a break, sit down and watch as the train passes by?

Then it occurred to me. Time will continue to flow no matter what happen. So, why the need to chase it? I don’t need to chase the time… I just need time. There’s no need to chase it, nothing can be done to stop it, so there’s no need to worry about it. No need to make life so difficult…

I feel at loss again. As if the feeling of having no aim in life. Void and emptiness. It’s good to know that she has friends. I have friends too. But……do I? Do I have anyone?

I know what I’m doing. I know where I’m going. Even though I choose to take the difficult path, I believe it’s the right path. I know my decision and I know what I have to do already. I just need to follow my heart, let it leads me thru… the darkness…

Life will never be the same again.

It seems that for exam, I need time, for this, I need time too. Everything will be alright eventually.

I always believe that 50% of success depends on me, whereas the other 50% depends on fate. I guess I have already done the best for my 50% part, the rest I should just leave it to fate and not worry so much about it.

Happy New Year 2010

2010-01-02T23:32:00.006+01:00

For me, snowfall always means something meaningful. Yesterday night, the 1st day of the New Year 2010 greeted us with a snowfall, thus marking the beginning of a new year.

Today is sunny and snow. It’s a good weather.

Year 2009 has passed. It is time to start fulfilling the resolution of the New Year! For many of us however, it means holiday’s over and it’s time to prepare for exam again. For some people, it is the departure of the one they loves, who came previously for a visit just to celebrate New Year together. Maybe, for some people, it is time to face the harsh reality. There are probably a lot of people out there in this world who spent the New Year alone…

No matter what, it’s time. Time to let bygone be bygone. Goodbye 2009 and welcome 2010!

It is not the beginning. Neither is it the end. It is but a beginning.

Happy New Year!

Keep moving forward

2009-12-30T00:19:00.005+01:00

I have been kinda moody since yesterday. Have been thinking a lot since the trip back from Paris. Thinking about what have been, what could have been, what can be and what will be. There's still so many things that I worry about, so many problems unsolved. I feel so lost again, can't see what lies ahead, I just want to crawl back into my bed and sleep throughout the whole day, running away from reality.

2 years ago, if I didn't choose to come to Mannheim, I won't be able get to know with so many people in Mannheim. Got Jian Nong, Meilina, Jhan Yhan, Kuiz, Sin Mei, Big Mouth, Wei Xiang, Wei Chieak, Chung Huan, Vlynn, Phoon, Siew Tee and so many others. I just didn't realize how fast time flies in just a blink of eyes.

Back to 4 and a half years ago, if I didn't get the JPA scholarship, I won't be here in Germany at all, and I won't be able to get to know with Etong, Jing Xin, Kai Chiat, Ying Jo, Yinnin, Qi Hao, Daniel, Pau, Xiang Yu, Theng2 and etc... I really miss the time back in INTEC, where we had a lot of fun and get crazy together.

Time just can't turn back, isn't it?

Die beste Zeit ist schon vorbei!

I came back from Paris to find out that the figurine I bought from Disneyland is broken. Haiz... very sad...

I hate losses, I don't like the feeling of losing something precious. I remember how I lost 2 of my memory cards back in Poland last time with all the precious memorable pictures inside. I even remember how my wallet with 300 euro got stolen back in Madrid. I remember many of my friends back in Malaysia, how I eventually lost contact with them because of my laziness to keep in touch. Maybe, someday in the future I will meet them again... Hopefully...

Time flies so fast, people go in and out of my life. I just don't want to miss the chance to tell these people how much they meant to me. I really cherish and appreciate you all from the bottom of my heart. And last but not least, I love my family the most!

I don't really want my moodiness to affect the people around me. So I think it's better if I just swallow up all the feelings. There's no reason for anyone else to get gloomy just because of me. So I will just look forward and keep moving. That's the way to go!

Keep moving forward!

Christmas 2009

2009-12-28T22:32:00.009+01:00

A week before Christmas, Etong, her mum, her brother and me went to Freiburg. As usual, Freiburg is bustled with people and activities even when it's snowing heavily.
After that we took a train to reach a nearby lake, it's name is Titisee (sister of Tasik Titiwangsa =D)

The lake was partly frozen.

It was freezing cold and my hand was trembling hard trying to get some good pictures of these ducks.

The cold wind was blowing hard and I'm pretty sure my nose and ears almost came off while I was trying to take photograph. Brrrr~~

But anyway, it was quite an enjoyable experience for me. Haha. I find it to be quite exciting actually. Seriously, I don't really mind the cold. As I always said, I rather die in cold than in hot weather. =P

We went to the restaurant beside the lake to eat it's homemade black forest cake. It's one of the best! Highly recommended!

On Christmas's eve, we took a train to Paris. We planned to celebrate Christmas there.

First we went to visit Arc de Triomphe.

After that we walked down the main street and had some sight-seeing in the city.

At night, it began to rain. After we checked in our apartment, we went to see the Moulin Rouge. We didn't get inside though, haha.

The rain became quite heavy by the time we reached the Eiffel tower. It wasn't so enjoyable. Trying to get some pictures of the tower resulted in my totally wet camera. Luckily my camera is still alright.

The next day, we went to the Paris Disneyland. We went into the Disneyland Park first.

Here's the Disneyland castle!

This is Alice's Curious Labyrinth!

After that, we went to the Walt Disney Studio Park.

Etong's brother and me went to take some roller coasters. We went to this Hollywood Tower Hotel as well. It's actually a lift that let you free fall, quite exciting actually =D

The Disneyland castle at night!

We went to the Disneyland Village as well.

It was quite a sight actually, it's so colourful that it made my eyes felt colourful. Hehe.

There was this group of men that sang some Christmas songs. Then it struck me: Hey! Today is Christmas! Somehow I forgot it's Christmas. How strange. Something deep inside me stirred, as I watched Etong and her family together... I felt as if I'm out of place here...

It's the feel of loneliness... Homesick... I miss my mum and dad, my sisters and brother. Here I am, at a place so far away from home... I will go home, someday. I hope that day will come soon.

Basically we really spent the whole day at Disneyland, reached back to our apartment only at around midnight. We were really dead tired.

On the next day, which was also our last day in Paris, we went to see the Notre Dame.

And revisited the Eiffel tower again. Well, in daylight, the Eiffel tower is nothing more than just a tower made from besi buruk. Lol. So I tried to take some pictures of it from different perspectives.

I took this photo while we were walking towards the metro station. Everyone seems to be moving very fast, each with their own goal to reach...

We went to the Louvre museum as well. We didn't get inside though.

Waiting for the time to pass by as we walked around in the city.

Bought the famous macarons!

Finally, we took the night train and reached Mannheim at around 10 pm.

That's how I celebrated the Christmas this year =)

By the way, I just realized that my camera have gone through a lot with me this time. Together we were in freezing cold weather, got wet in rain and went up and down in roller coaster. My camera and me are real buddies now! =D

Sin Mei and my birthday!

2009-12-16T23:07:00.008+01:00

13th December, that's my birthday. Hey! It's Sin Mei's too!
I just found out not long ago that Sin Mei and I share the same birthday!
So we had a brunch birthday party last Sunday at Jian Nong's place.

The food is nasi lemak with sambal udang and rendang ayam!

Wei Cheaik said: I'm a vegetarian.................no more! See his proud looking face! Heehee

This is Big Mouth. He's...... washing the dishes??? So unbelieveable!!! No wonder that day snow la... Haha!

His real name is....erm....Yon Chuang?? Never mind. Big Mouth fits him better. =D The reason is that, of all the 10 things that he said, 11 of them are not to be trusted!

This is Siew Tee, the Asti Queen!

Why is she the Asti Queen? Just look how happy she was when drinking Asti wine!

My birthday card! It's full of cats!

Sin Mei's birthday card! Her's got dogs one!

Finally, I would like to thank everyone for coming to this birthday party!

Nasi lemak dinner!

2009-12-11T20:24:00.000+01:00

Thanks to Kuiz, we have the chance to eat such wonderful nasi lemak dinner!

Kuiz, thanks a lot! =D

Jhan Yhan, what are you trying to do? Heehee

Sorry la, only Phoon is the main focus, the rest of you are background only. Keke =D

Siew Tee! I don't know you are such a good cola drinker! Can see your muscle somemore!

Finally, I would like to thank Kuiz again. Your nasi lemak taste really great! =D

Weihnachtsmarkt 2009

2009-12-07T16:26:00.001+01:00

Weihnachtsmarkt. It's the street market associated with the celebration of Christmas during advent, mainly the four weeks preceding Christmas Day. This also means that Christmas is coming soon! =P

It's being held all over in Germany. I went to the one in Mannheim.

This little kid is so cute =D

As usual, Etong didn't know someone was behind her. Haha

Siew Tee getting so excited like a kid =D

Hey Wei Xiang! What's wrong with you?? LOL

1 week later I went to the one in Speyer

Wei Cheaik the handsome. Not you la Big Mouth!

Glühwein! Cheers!

Italy!

2009-10-04T00:48:00.003+02:00

We went to Italy for vacation during September!

Etong, Kai Chiat and me 1st arrived at Alghero, one of the city along the coast on Sardenia island.

We went to the beach!

Kai Chiat posing, looks like a star!

We went for a bicycle ride! You can see how sunny it was! Fuh~~

Some shots along the way

We found a giant sand castle!

Another beach!

Playing around on the beach!

Etong marked our name on the beach!

Went to eat ice-cream, the best one in Alghero!

This is the best combination! Highly recommended!

Dusk at harbour! So beautiful!

This little ship is awesome!

Our next stop was Rome, where we met up with Meilina, Jian Nong and Chun Wai.

The Colosseum!

The Pantheon!

Both the couples are so loving. What are you doing in the middle Etong??!!!

The Trevi Fountain!

Next, we went to Florence!

The mini statue of David!

The Vecchio Bridge!

And after that we went to Pisa!

What were all these people doing actually??!

Ahh! We did the same too! Hehe =D

We were taking some time here because some of us were practicing taiji! =P

Ms. Mime, what are you trying to do? =D

Reached Milan!

This is real model! She looked so cool and dead serious!

This rich guy buy LV bags wor!

And then due to security reason went to Disney shop to do some repackaging. Clever! =D

Finally, we reached Venice!

These are gondola, the Venetian rowing boats!

This image is so cool!

The whole square is flooded!

She didn't realised Chun Wai was behind her =P

We went on a boat trip!

They stood there for a very long time, dreaming I guess.

Pose alike!

5 mins later, they both fall asleep. But their pose were alike too!

Here is Burano, a small island near Venice. The buildings here are so colourful!

Last but not least, here's Kai Chiat, the catwoman! She scared herself looking at the mirror. (Because she's afraid of cat =D)

End of trip. Like Kai Chiat always says, we had a blast in Italy!

Visit to Bochum!

2009-10-02T01:29:00.001+02:00

After Poland trip, spent a few days at Eric's place in Bochum and celebrated his birthday!

Walked around in Essen, the city nearby!

Playing around in IKEA

Qi Hao, you are so so so cute!

Self-made sao mai! Creative leh! It's my artwork!

Went to Duisburg's zoo. This little girl is learning to be an artist!

Artists wannabe!

This pony is so cool!

Dolphins shots!

Oh! They are flying!

Poland again!

2009-10-01T23:01:00.000+02:00

Went to Poland again during early August, but this time only revisit Kraków and Zakopane.

Zakopane is a small town, but it's bustled with people!

Found a very classic restaurant!

The small river that flows by the town

This chocolate drink is delicious!

So is this waffle!

The pasar tani at Zakopane!

Decided to go hiking!

This couple must be very tired. Don't give up!

Finally, after 3 hours of hiking... the Morskie Oko! It's such a beautiful lake!
A picture is worth a thousand words. I got a few thousands words to say, so here's some pictures =D

It was very windy outside but luckily there's a restaurant beside the lake! Went in to eat pancake!

Throughout the whole journey, I only wore this pair of shoes! Incredible! I got blisters afterwards though. Haha =P

Decided to go up to the Gubałówka Hill (1120 m). Waited for more than 4 hours to take the funicular!

Here are the views from the top!

At Kraków, caught some funny little babies =D

Caught a bee!

Caught someone trying to shoot candid pictures! Haha =P
The woman is actually the photographer for the wedding.

To conclude, KFC at Poland is the best!

Freedom!

2009-07-10T00:25:00.001+02:00

The feeling right after exam! Freedom!!!

After 2 long weeks of fighting, so tired and exhausted!

Going to sleep all I want!

I'm free, at last...

I’m still alive!

2009-06-02T22:39:00.000+02:00

I wonder, would I be able to make it through this semester?
Every Monday to Friday, start out at 7.30am, come back at 7.30pm. By the time I reach home, I’m already so tired and have no mood at all to do anything, no appetite to eat, let alone study…

No progress in studies:

I don’t know how to face Thermodynamik this semester, it’s gonna be a tough one…

I still have Werkstoffkunde 2, the subject that I dropped in previous semester, the subject I dislike most, and the professor is well-known to be very strict in exam…

I have been skipping my Mathe 3 class since the very beginning of the semester, hehe, planned to learn on my own since it’s more effective than attending the class, but so far I haven’t done anything yet…

Electrotechnik, well, the professor is kinda cute, lol. =D He is nyanyuk one la, there was an incident: While he was writing on the blackboard, one of the student asked some question, so he turned around and walked up to the student, and answered the question to the person sitting right next to the student. It was the funniest scene I have ever seen. =P

Konstruktion 3, there’s this big project that needs to be completed, but that project is my favourite! Right now I’m very busy because of this project…

TM3 shouldn’t be hard, though I haven’t done a single exercise yet…

DV2 - Programming 2, shouldn’t be a problem, as it’s the only subject that I can understand without much learning =D

Last but not least, Japanisch 2! I don’t really have much time for this extra subject actually, but I’m gonna score this time again!

Counting all in, I have 8 subjects altogether, and it’s a lot, because normally one semester have only 6 subjects, no wonder my timetable is so packed! As if I don’t know that already, haha…
Haiz, I’m starting to regret taking so much subjects in one go, the burden is so so heavy, but I have to, and I’m already halfway through, I shouldn’t give up now right? Just a little bit more, and everything will be over eventually, just a little bit more…

Enough complaining. From now on, I’m will give in my full effort!

Hmm, I only have one month left, is it a bit too late now?
NO!! Never say too late! It’s never too late to do anything!

That’s the spirit!

Decision

2009-05-01T02:47:00.005+02:00

I hate to make decision, especially important one

Feeling sad and confused...

Been flipping coins in the past few days...

I don't know what to do anymore...

I don't want to hurt anyone...

Hurt myself again, and it's not the 1st time anymore...

Can anyone help me?

Sia - Breathe Me
Hochgeladen von Sia. - Entdecke weitere Musik Videos.

3 weeks ago

2009-03-30T22:47:00.005+02:00

It's been 3 weeks since the class started...
Life's been pretty busy since the holiday ended, I barely have the time to breathe!
What did I do during the holiday??

Ah yes, I went to a 10 days trip to east Europe, Poland and Hungary to be exact. Kinda strange to think of it, of all the places, I actually choose to go there and not France or Italy. (I have been staying for 1 year in Germany and yet still haven't visit her neighbour France, lolz)

It was rather fun actually to go to places that not many people go. There are not many Asian there, so basically you can imagine that we are the only Asian in the whole city at that time, and it feels great! The things there are pretty cheap, very much like Malaysia, with several so-called the biggest shopping complex in Central Europe that are on par with Malaysia's shopping mall. That's why I bought a lot of stuff! Hehe, I have bought a pair of good quality trekking shoes, a pair of jeans, a jacket and a shirt. Perhaps for a girl this is considered nothing, but for me it's what I can buy in a year, so it's really considered a lot for me. =D The exchange rate for Poland's currency is 4:1 compare with Euro. So it felt almost like using Ringgit Malaysia there, haha. The Hungary's exchange rate is about 240:1, when I exchanged 50 Euro I get like about more than 10 thousand, the amount is very scary man, lolz.

I almost forgot. We went to a place called Zakopane. It's a small town that lies in a large valley between the Tatra Mountains and Gubałówka Hill. It is informally known as "the winter capital of Poland". It is the most important Polish center of mountaineering and skiing, and is visited annually by some three million tourists. I learned ski there (finally!) for the 1st time! =P It was very hard to learn ski on your own, that's what I did, and I failed miserably. Lolz. I think I fall down more than 50 times before I gave up. So I ended up taking up an one-hour ski course and tada... I can ski! I never fell down anymore after taking the course, it's such a big difference between before and after, hehe. The course isn't that expensive anyway since it's in Poland, hehe, if I were to learn it in Germany, it would have cost a bomb. Anyway, previously I have fall in love with ski, now I'm deeply in love with it. I would love to go ski again!

We came back just 2 days before the class started again. And, I lost 2 of my camera's memory cards. That's why there's no picture of my trip this time. Very sad indeed. But still, it's a very enjoyable trip. I would love to go to Poland again. It can be regarded as a temporary replacement of Malaysia's shopping mall, hehe. And most importantly, there's Zakopane! During the summer time it's a good place for hiking too! Maybe my next summer's target. =D

Last Saturday night I went to Stuttgart and sing karaoke with friends, and then play mahjong throughout the night without sleep (again) at Esslingen. Yesterday came back Mannheim and felt like my body don't belong to me. Had a hair cut by Jian Nong yesterday and basically now I have a square head. =D

Today, well, I'm sick, down with a running nose. I guess it's due to what I did on Saturday night, Teehee. Now, I feel really sleepy. That's all for today. =P

Life after exam

2009-02-19T16:59:00.012+01:00

After exam, went straight away to Esslingen to find Pau and the others. That night is Friday the 13th, a bad day considered by some, but a good one for me. So we played mahjong! =D

I’m a beginner here. Hehe. We became crazy and played throughout the night, till around 6.30am. Lolz. Have a few hours of sleep before taking train back to Mannheim again.

The next day, 14th Feb, it’s Valentine’s Day! We had a potluck at Hafenstraße, the place where I stayed. There were altogether around 20 people trying to fit into a kitchen that is only meant for 10. This is how it looks like. =P

There were Chinese food, Malay food, Indian food and Thai food. Basically it’s Asian potluck.

The symbol of Asian: Chinese, Malay, Indian and Thai!

Guess who is this??

At first I thought that not many people would come as its Valentine’s Day and those couples preferred to be berdua-dua. But many people come after all. Hehe. This potluck has its purposes, first being celebrating the end of exam weeks. Yeah! Second, it is to welcome the juniors to Germany. Last but not least, it’s Valentine’s Day!

After potluck and finish cleaning up the dishes, the juniors and several other people went back home while the Hafen people stayed. Guess what we did? Hehe. We played the police and killer game!

It’s a game where each of us takes a card. Depends on what card we picked, three of us would be the police, the doctor, and the killer, while the rest would be citizen. It was a lot of fun. Chan Yhan managed to break all the records, first being the killer who killed himself and second being the killer who is nabbed in the first round. Lolz. We played Taboo as well. Keke.

I nominated Kuiz as the best pengacara and best actor of the day. Lolz. It’s really great and fun to have him around. We played till around 3am that night.

Finish? Not yet!!

The next day, we had dim sum breakfast!!! We ate at around 3pm, so its tea time actually. Teehee. It really needs some time to prepare chee cheong fun, loh mah kai and you tiao, but it doesn’t matter, because it’s just great to be able to taste these delicacies in Germany.

That's how life in Germany should be! =D

Chinese New Year 2009!

2009-01-27T23:10:00.004+01:00

It's Chinese New Year already! So I told my friend from Greece that yesterday is CNY. He asked me how I'm gonna celebrate it, and I reply back ,"by preparing my exam?" Oh, man, what a miserable CNY... Exam is in one week time. How time flies!

I just had my Japanese test today. Other people are busy preparing for their exam, and I'm busy studying Japanese, which in fact is actually just an optional subject. This is what people called "buntut gatal". Teehee. I'm gonna d... Opps, forgot it's CNY! That word is forbidden!

In order to study, I have been drinking a lot of coffee, draining off my life at the same time. Today, I feel that I'm about to drain off the last drop of my life... So tired. I promise myself that I will stop drinking coffee for 2 months right after exam. =D

Here's a photo of my cute little niece!!

This is the only photo that I have of her as I can only see her through webcam. If only I can be right beside her...... She must be having a nice and warm CNY there. How wonderful. I have been unable to contact my family, guess they are too busy to use msn? Hope anyone of them will get online soon! Suddenly I just miss my family terribly much.

Be grateful, for those of you who are warm this CNY and together with your family and loved ones. Be grateful too, for those of you who are missing out your family, because it's what makes you treasure them more. =D

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!!

I have a niece!

2009-01-17T11:01:00.003+01:00

Woohoo! I just became an uncle two days ago, yeah! Congrats to my sis and sis-in-law! I haven't got the chance to see my newborn niece yet, will get the chance to see her through webcam soon, really can't wait. =D I have already bought a pair of new shoes for her even though she still can't walk. Teehee... Hope my family will receive my package before chinese new year.

Exam is just around the corner. Can't laze around anymore, have to study! Ok byebye! Wish my newborn niece healthy and chubby. =P

My 21st Birthday

2009-01-13T23:54:00.003+01:00

My 21st birthday was exactly a month ago, so basically I'm celebrating my 21st full month today, like a new-born baby's full month =P

Anyway, here's the story of what happened on the December 12th (a day before my birthday):

I came home at around 6pm and felt really really tired, have been busy doing my project in school. Etong said Jian Nong will cook dinner, and will call when finish cooking, so I wait lor... While waiting, a thought crossed my mind, "They seems to be kinda secretive these few days. Are they planning something for my birthday? Hmm..." Then suddenly I heard a group of people talking very loudly outside downstairs, and with all those "lah" behind each sentences, I knew straight away that they were talking Malaysian Chinese! I quickly ran to the window and looked out, trying to see who they are. Too bad they were already too far away for me to recognize their faces. Some Malaysian friends who came to visit? I couldn't care less because my stomach started to growl. At around half past 8, Etong finally called me.

Etong opened the door for me and I headed to the kitchen while thinking, "Jian Nong and Etong must have cooked something special for me, hehe." I opened the door of the kitchen, and the kitchen was pitch dark and silent. The only warning I got is a red flash, and in the next moment I was overwhelmed by flashes from camera and voices of many people singing happy birthday song to me! WAO! I was really surprised and terharu! I never thought that so many people will come, especially the guys from Esslingen and Offenburg, which are so far away from Mannheim. This is my 1st ever birthday party, as I have never had a birthday party before back in Malaysia. Guys, I'm really touched this time, huhu...

At the party were Jingxin, Daniel, Qihao, Pau, Xiang Yu, Theng2, Chan Jhan, Meilina, Vlynn, Anam and Brintha. Thanks a lot guys!! And I would like to thank Etong and Jian Nong for throwing this party for me. This party at the same time is also a gathering for all ALG 9 chinese, and seriously, it's really been a long time since we have such a gathering. So wonderful...

Such a wonderful birthday cake!!!

I was stepping into the kitchen.

Daniel and me.

Jian Nong the cook. =D

Daniel and Qihao

Wah! So much of food!

Here comes the cupcakes!

Lolz!

It was such a wonderful night. Again, thanks a lot guys for everything!!!

Welcome!

2009-01-13T00:13:00.001+01:00

Hello everyone! First and foremost, Welcome to my Blog!!! =P I don't even know why I'm here in the 1st place, perhaps I just want to have a place for storing my thoughts? (and thus the title =D) . I have been thinking of writing a diary before, but I guess I was just too lazy to write in a book, so, here I am! Anyway, I will "try" my best to keep this blog alive. =)