A path taken...

Library became my second home recently. Everyday whenever I have free time, I will be in the library. I’m in the rush to chase the time, which is running out. I come back home only after the library closes at 12am. When I cycle back home at night, I will pass by the dark alley that runs along the river behind Hafenstrasse. One night, I was feeling especially tired, and lonely, before I reach my home. I slowed down, and eventually stopped cycling.

I climbed down instead and sat beside the river, watched the sky which was so full of stars that night. I asked myself: Why am I trying so hard to chase the time? Can’t I just stop for a moment and wait as the time flows by? Instead of cycling so fast, why not try to take a break, sit down and watch as the train passes by?

Then it occurred to me. Time will continue to flow no matter what happen. So, why the need to chase it? I don’t need to chase the time… I just need time. There’s no need to chase it, nothing can be done to stop it, so there’s no need to worry about it. No need to make life so difficult…

I feel at loss again. As if the feeling of having no aim in life. Void and emptiness. It’s good to know that she has friends. I have friends too. But……do I? Do I have anyone?

I know what I’m doing. I know where I’m going. Even though I choose to take the difficult path, I believe it’s the right path. I know my decision and I know what I have to do already. I just need to follow my heart, let it leads me thru… the darkness…

Life will never be the same again.

It seems that for exam, I need time, for this, I need time too. Everything will be alright eventually.

I always believe that 50% of success depends on me, whereas the other 50% depends on fate. I guess I have already done the best for my 50% part, the rest I should just leave it to fate and not worry so much about it.